man, just woke up.

ended up missing class and that stupid test. well shit, that was counterproductive. note to self: apply mallet to head instead of visiting the dorm's "pharmacy." at least you'd wake up in time for the thing you actually wanted to get sleep for.

guess tatsube-chan came by while i was sleeping. there's notes from class on my desk, and some soup in a thermos. probably thought i was sick... man, i didn't even hear her come in.

dead to the world, but don't even felt like i slept any.



[ certainly did dream a fucking lot though.

was sitting with tatsube-chan in my room, studying for the lit test. was getting really restless and bored, when kaneda climbs in through my window and sprints past us to the door, dressed like he's ready to skydive. well, that's a hell lot more interesting to me than studying, so i just get up to follow him.

only i can't get through the fucking door cause it's too small. peek through the keyhole and i can see the blue sky with its clouds beyond, and i can't get through the door. so i get all frustrated and kick at it. little bird swoops in overhead and tells me to 'keep my temper,' in mizuki-san's voice, which only makes me more mad. try to swipe at it and just fall on my ass. only now i'm looking at a glass table.

there's a cat sitting on it and it's got either aniki's or oushi's smile--the annoying one where they're trying to be patient with me or if they know something i don't.

so i ask it which way i should go.
it tells me that it depends on where i want to get to, in oushi's voice.
i tell it i don't care.
it tells me it doesn't matter, in oushi's voice.
but i want to get somewhere, out of here.
and it says that'll happen if i walk long enough, in aniki's voice.

this just pisses me off, cause it's speaking in riddles, so i swing at it. it disappears, except for that grin, which floats around me like some kind of annoying fly, spinning me around and around in a circle till the world is nothing but a blur.

reach out to steady myself, cause i think i'm really going to get sick, and someone catches my hand, and i'm being twirled around a ballroom by oushi. he's got the cat's grin, and he's fucking leading. start to get really pissed about this, but he tells me to keep my temper and we're going down a narrow hall bordered by many small windows. kaneda's there, and mizuki-san, and they're all dressed in suits for jumping, bright yellow, neon purple. and oushi's whirling me around and around and he's grinning and he asks me if i'm ready to fly.

he lets go and i spin right on out the yawning door into empty blue.

i fall, only i fall up, higher and higher, the blue turning to midnight turning to black. aniki falls past me, going down down, and i try to grab him, but he slips through my fingers, and there's nothing but emptiness filled with blazing stars watching me as i soar into a blossoming supernova.

... man, no drugs for me ever again. really wanted to go home tonight, guess i'll head over after morning classes tomorrow. ]